Its that bad huh? Well eventually good musicians who are ambitious as you will come along and will be at the same understanding as yourself... Just be patient I know what you are going through its a drag really but it all pays off knowing your stuff why not try to play like in a mall outside or something attracts attention and money comes in.. I tried it only once made 300 bucks in less than 3 hours and I was just playing simple beats, rudiments, and stick tricks try it out you never know what can happen...good luck though